You are 18, welcome to semi-adulthood.
Say goodbye to MHS.
I can guarantee you that if you continue to ride your bke for 6 more years things will open up for you that you never expected.
Listening to what you tell us, you already have an innate understanding of right and wrong, so you must do what you know is right.
Um, when you’re 18 you don’t have to sneak out to ride.
You can just go ride.
You might want to call Dave, he is a very level headed guy.