I suggest you go to your local library and read some of Joseph Campbell’s work.
His insight into why some of us are the way we are would be instrumental in your situation.
You are grown up, you have realized that you are different and unique when compared with others. To stop that now at this point in your life will only lead to despair, anger and regret when you get…older.
Go ride your bike, read some philosophy and realize unfortunately in life there is an us and a them.
The important thing to realize is that you must only listen to you.